Since all my previous ‘weekly’ posting have failed (See New Music #1, #2, #3 and Movie Reviews #1, #2, #3, #4) I’m hoping that this will be easier as it is really once a week and labeled Friday night so i cant really forget to do it as I have before. Besides my Friday nights are becoming more of an adventure every time. Except tonight really. I wrote 2 Mid-Terms today, pretty much bombed the one I needed to do good in and aced the one I didn’t have to. Perhaps I think too much about why I do the things I do but it gives me good insight on life.
For instance, after bombing the midterm in the class I’m majoring it made me think, why the hell am I here if I’m doing so bad. The reason I picked my major was because I loved Chemistry and was willing to pursue it so I could be more knowledgeable in the field and hopefully land a job doing something I love. Its not often that we find something that we love doing and talking about it just makes me realize just how much I love it. But how can we do something that we love if we aren’t fantastic at it? Better question: Why do we love things we are not fantastic at?
I’d answer because I like challenges. Not so much at an academic level because you are usually given the option to take the easy route. But I’ve found out that you don’t learn as much from the easy route nor do you develop your skills. Aside from school challenges push me and help me find my limits. Do things I never thought possible, even on a smaller scale. An exam… made me think about all of this, I love controlled processing.
Controlled processing… an idea of thinking on a conscious level and focusing your attention on it… Psychology 203. This class is a joke, I learn about 2 new things every day which is pretty bad for a ‘new’ class that you have no tangible background in. All they do is attach names to things you consider common sense or have experienced first hand. We are all experts in Psychology because the majority can think and know the answers but just need to hear them from another person, we see the ‘theory’s’ practiced everyday. The only thing I would ever ask a psychologist is what they learned from all of it because I can almost guarantee it will be a fantastic truth that tells us the human psyche’s one true flaw.
*On a side note I would like to acknowledge that this is an ignorant view and… “psychology can reveal alot about the human mind”. Perhaps

But yes. This Friday night is quiet since I have a fuckton of stuff to study and finish for next week, I even turned down a night at the clubs for it. Fuck you school.

-Fenix